Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Oh, I'm tired.

But, I'm not sore! Yay! Either the water is working or the treadmill after weights is really helping work the lactic acid out of my system. I have to admit, I'm really surprised that I'm even mobile today after two workouts and class last night. But, I ain't knockin' it! I'm... well, I'm impressed, really. I expected to be a wracked with pain this morning! lol

However, as the title mentions, I'm damned tired. Like alarm-clock-going-off-for-ten-minutes tired. I still made it to the gym after dropping Xay off at school and did a full workout, which lasts about 2 hours. I was hard-pressed to get on the elliptical, but I just kept telling myself, "I can quit whenever I need to... but can I make it another 30 seconds? Yes, I can." I got through my elliptical workout 30 seconds at a time, today. Same with weights, "Can I do one more set? Yes, though it burns!" LOL By the time I hit the treadmill, I was feeling good and breezed through it.

After I lose my first 15 pounds, I'm going to reward myself with a haircut, I think. Or maybe a massage. I'll see which I'm feeling more like having when that time comes, and I'll keep ya posted.


Monday, March 30, 2009

Two workouts...

...under my belt so far. I worked out yesterday and today, and I'm surprised to admit, I feel good. Both days I started out with the elliptical machine to get me sweating, then onto weight training. I begin with the upper body to give my legs a little break, then core, followed by lower body. I finish with the treadmill to get my heart rate back up before cooling down. Afterward, I feel like I've worked, but not too hard, just enough to challenge me.

I tend to be a two-day ache, meaning I don't get sore the next day. The second day after though, yikes! Luckily, I've gotten back to drinking alot (100 ounces per day at the minimum) of water, and I've heard that can help keep you from being too sore. Alot of people wonder why I drink that much water. Well, a couple of reasons, really: First, I am a kidney stone breeder, and that's not fun. Second, I also got back to DietPower last week, so I'm paying alot of attention to what I eat. Sweet tea has ALOT of sugar in it and I just can't handle the flavor of Splenda. So, water, please!

So, all that being said, I have a feeling tomorrow, after two workouts and dance class tonight, might be a touch ... uh... shall we say senstive? LOL But, I want to still make it to the gym. I took Corwin today and he really enjoyed the childcare. Like Xay, he just loves other kids and the chance to play with them is like candy. I hope to get there a little earlier tomorrow, though, to get my workout in and maybe take the BodyJam class tomorrow evening. BodyJam combines a workout with dance and it sounds fun. What? Me, like a dance-centered class? Huh? Yeah, I know. I gotta admit to being a little nervous about classes because I'm afraid I won't be able to keep up at first. Stupid, huh?

Ok, to sum up: 03/23/09 I started back on DietPower, which is a computer program that tracks your weight, caloric intake, exercise, et cetra in order to help you reach your weight-management goals. 03/29/09 I started my gym membership at Gold's Gym and had my first workout. My goal is just to get back into shape. Since having Corwin (and all that entailed) and my hamstring injury this past December, my stamina is nil, I've gained weight, and I just feel crappy when I look in the mirror. I want to feel like I did before my body made a second human being.

Let's see where I am in six months. :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Gold's Gym

I just won an auction for a six-month membership to my local Gold' Gym. I'm pretty excited, but I'm also nervous. I've never worked out at a big gym with lots of people around. However, there is childcare and classes... I may not be taking showers there, but there is a sauna, which would be wonderful.

I'm looking forward to getting rid of the weight I've packed on from my latest pregnancy, then more recently with the hamstring injury, and subsequent steroids and medications. Should I do the whole before/after pic thing? I may, but you probably won't see either of them until the after is taken! LOL I'm sorta shy about it, I guess.

Yay for my first shaky steps back to good health!

Inspirational quote that I really like:

"At the beginning, if I strayed from my diet, I'd start over again on Monday. Now, I get back to healthy eating at the very next meal."

Lacy Boggs as quoted in Shape Magazine, April 2009

I like this because it take the sense of failure out of slip-ups. You really do get a chance to make healthy choices with every bit of food you put in your mouth. If you made a mistake, the next meal is your next chance to get back on track.


Friday, March 20, 2009

Long time, no see...

I haven't blogged in about THREE MONTHS!!


First of all, I joined Twitter; see the sidebar. --> And, look for me on Skype, too.

It's been crazy and busy, and wild, and a roller coaster sometimes, and I just haven't been motivated to write about it. Mostly, I've been struggling with some feelings of betrayal and hurt that I just couldn't shake. When I feel like that, I can barely talk to my friends, my Mom or my husband about it, let alone wave it in front of the virtual world. Don't get me wrong: I'm not so conceited as to think that anyone but me reads this with any regularity or serious consideration; however, I know from past experience that folks I know stumble across it all the time (I don't advertise it; it's listed in my profile in a couple of spots, but that's it). I don't want to make my readers feel uncomfortable because I'm ranting about things they don't really understand or relate to, and I don't want to look back and feel like a fool. Ultimately, this is a blog, not a diary, so it is by nature public, not private and I tend to be a very private, extroverted person. Great at parties, but I sometimes leave people wondering what they really know about me.

So, that's that and I've made ALOT of progress away from a deep hurt and alot of resentment toward just getting along in my everyday life without thinking about the situation constantly and wondering why people can be so blatantly mean sometimes. It sucks, but we all have to deal at some point, and I've reached that point.

Something else that's been happening: December 17th, I was suddenly struck with a severe case of sciatica. Can't-sit-can-only-stand-or-lie-on-my-stomach sciatica, and even then, I was in great pain constantly. Pain I couldn't sleep through, and I can sleep through Jason's snoring, so that's saying something. I was bed-ridden for two weeks and nothing seemed to help. After seeing a chiropractor and a doctor, a second doctor finally told me what the problem was: a severely inflamed hamstring that is affecting my sciatic nerve and every tendon in my leg. I'm just now getting to where I can dance regularly again, but I still limp most of the time. Driving makes it hurts the most, but I've made tons of progress in that area, too.

I tell ya, having an emotional injury as well as physical one really just plays havoc with your pysche. I haven't really even wanted to dance. I haven't been inspired to create, choreograph, design, crochet, knit, even just listen to music in a while. There were days when I just cried at the seeming unfairness of it.

Finally, I'm pulling myself out, washing off the blue funk and getting back into the swing. Maybe the injury was caused by my internalizing the emotional hurt. More likely, it was caused by simply being lazy and not keeping up with my Yoga and stretching. Either way, I had to deal with both things together and it made for a dark Winter.

But, today is the first day of Spring. And, I'm finally finding a balance.